I love arguing but I hate it when it’s with someone you care about.
It’s disheartening to know how unwanted I am sometimes.
Makes being happy really difficult.
Some people will never understand the amount of love I have for certain musical artists, and I’m okay with that. They’ve impacted my life in ways that I could never explain, and for that, I’m thankful for their music.
— (via poisontome)
Sometimes I feel like I might finally be content with the way I look, and then I look in the mirror and it’s like
People know I’m unhappy here.
People know I’m very attached to my hometown.
People know I had the opportunity to leave.
But no one will know all the details as to why I stayed.
I feel I will be unhappy here for as long as I’m here, and that’s for me to fight through, because I feel as if I’m going through the war of my life right now.
Got no choice but to fight ‘til it’s done.
I honestly think that if I transferred out of UH and attended Western instead, none of my “friends” here in Hawaii would actually miss me.
Also feel as if I’d be genuinely happy at Western, doing a major that would fulfill a dream of mine, and potentially getting a career out of something I’d love doing.
Having a lot of second thoughts about my choices, but trying to remain “happy” for the sake of my own self.